I'll Never Understand Men
I know men say they'll never understand women but, in my opinion, men are way more difficult to understand than women. Before I go any further, I will say that I'm not totally un-shallow. I do have moments when I'd take a guy who looked like George Clooney over the nicest guy in the world, just because I'd enjoy getting all googly-eyed while gazing at him. However, if I knew for sure, no question about it, that there was a guy who was nuts about me, and wanted to spend time with me, and enjoyed conversations with me and, well, you get the idea, there's no way ... no way ... I'd be home surfing online dating sites instead of calling him and asking if he wanted to hang out or something.
When Jay and I were talking about something similar, he said something that made me feel "fantabulous," though. He said if a guy was doing this instead of hanging with me it would be his loss. He takes good care of me. I hope he's still talking to me, though. I smoked while he was still at work, and I'm supposed to give him $6 if I do that. I didn't. Now that I think about it, I saw his truck parked somewhere earlier. I should go see if it's still there, and leave the 6 bucks there.
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Monday, March 06, 2006
Weird Dreams
This isn't an actual installment of Weird Dreams. It's just an observation. Over the last couple of weeks my dreams have been so vivid that, when I'm awake, I'm not sure if they were dreams or memories. It's hard to explain, but sometimes I feel as if I've actually been to the places I'm dreaming about, and the things that happened really happened.
I can't really explain how it makes me feel, other than it makes me want to remember more. I'm pretty sure all of this is just a side effect of the Effexor, and I'll be off that in May, so we'll see what happens then. I'm am kind of nervous about going off the Effexor, though. My moods have been normal ever since I started taking it. The doctor said this anti-depressant is supposed to get you back to normal after a post-surgery chemical imbalance. Then, you don't need it anymore. I hope that's the case with me.
OK. I just decided I will write about this one dream ... in honor of The Best Friend's birthday, which was Saturday. I was at this party at a beach house in Australia with a lot of my friends and aquaintances from all the chapters of my life. We were having a really good time, then I heard other people in another room. I went to check it out, and The Best Friend was there. So, he blew off his party and I blew off mine. He told me he knew of this private beach not from from where we were, and asked if I'd like to go there with him. Of course I did. So, we hiked up this mountain, and on the other side was the most beautiful beach I'd ever seen. We hung out there for a long time, just doing what we do when we hang out ... forgetting anyone else in the world even exists. I'm sure that dream came from the fact that we haven't spent a lot of time together lately, or even e-mailed as much as usual, and the other day we both said how much we miss each other. *sigh*
This isn't an actual installment of Weird Dreams. It's just an observation. Over the last couple of weeks my dreams have been so vivid that, when I'm awake, I'm not sure if they were dreams or memories. It's hard to explain, but sometimes I feel as if I've actually been to the places I'm dreaming about, and the things that happened really happened.
I can't really explain how it makes me feel, other than it makes me want to remember more. I'm pretty sure all of this is just a side effect of the Effexor, and I'll be off that in May, so we'll see what happens then. I'm am kind of nervous about going off the Effexor, though. My moods have been normal ever since I started taking it. The doctor said this anti-depressant is supposed to get you back to normal after a post-surgery chemical imbalance. Then, you don't need it anymore. I hope that's the case with me.
OK. I just decided I will write about this one dream ... in honor of The Best Friend's birthday, which was Saturday. I was at this party at a beach house in Australia with a lot of my friends and aquaintances from all the chapters of my life. We were having a really good time, then I heard other people in another room. I went to check it out, and The Best Friend was there. So, he blew off his party and I blew off mine. He told me he knew of this private beach not from from where we were, and asked if I'd like to go there with him. Of course I did. So, we hiked up this mountain, and on the other side was the most beautiful beach I'd ever seen. We hung out there for a long time, just doing what we do when we hang out ... forgetting anyone else in the world even exists. I'm sure that dream came from the fact that we haven't spent a lot of time together lately, or even e-mailed as much as usual, and the other day we both said how much we miss each other. *sigh*
Friday, March 03, 2006
I Totally Forgot!
How could I forget this is the month I get my royalty checks? It was an awesome suprise, though! One of these days, I'll finish the next book so I can get more "surprise" money.
OK Josh. Don't read this next part. ;)
When I go to the bank (when I have to actually go in), I park on the street behind the bank and go in the back door. (Just habit from when I worked at the paper.) Anyway, as I was parking, I was listening to the radio and they were really funny this morning, so I didn't want to turn it off. So, I was sitting there just listening when I notice a vehicle pulling into the parking lot across from where I was. Everything would have been fine (in terms of me not caring that I saw him) if he didn't smile and wave. And Josh (cuz I know you're reading even though I told you not to. ;) ) I'm tellin' ya, I got all giggly and goofy (or goofi-er, I guess). I need to give him up for Lent. Or, at least the obsession.
Chris just said "This week has seemed like a month." I agree!!! TGIF! Well, in about 9 more hours anyway.
How could I forget this is the month I get my royalty checks? It was an awesome suprise, though! One of these days, I'll finish the next book so I can get more "surprise" money.
OK Josh. Don't read this next part. ;)
When I go to the bank (when I have to actually go in), I park on the street behind the bank and go in the back door. (Just habit from when I worked at the paper.) Anyway, as I was parking, I was listening to the radio and they were really funny this morning, so I didn't want to turn it off. So, I was sitting there just listening when I notice a vehicle pulling into the parking lot across from where I was. Everything would have been fine (in terms of me not caring that I saw him) if he didn't smile and wave. And Josh (cuz I know you're reading even though I told you not to. ;) ) I'm tellin' ya, I got all giggly and goofy (or goofi-er, I guess). I need to give him up for Lent. Or, at least the obsession.
Chris just said "This week has seemed like a month." I agree!!! TGIF! Well, in about 9 more hours anyway.