grrrrrrrrrrr! I spent all morning doing a new layout for this thing and now Blogger won't let me publish it! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (again)
Saturday, March 23, 2002
I usually don't write about this stuff, but if I can't write here, what's the point of having a blog? I have lots of, umm, issues. Some I deal with pretty well, I guess. Others are a bit tougher. I'm getting better at talking about them -- thanks to Nick -- and that seems to help. He's actually helped me to figure out what some of my problems are. For example, it seemed that every time we had days off and had plans to do something outside the house, I'd get sick. I'm talking violent vomiting, migraines, feeling feverish. It was awful. A few weeks ago, Nick figured out that I have agoraphobia (sp?). It's not as bad as some people have it, but I've still got it. Since we identified the problem, it's gotten a little better. I seem to have more anxiety attacks, though, and I'm sure it's related somehow. I feel like a freak sometimes because of it. I know it's real, but it's still freaky to me. Take last night for example. We were going to my in-laws for dinner and they were going to teach us a new game (Sequence. It's really fun.) and I really wanted to go. I love my in-laws. I really, really do. They're great people and they totally accepted me into the family. I can't say enough good things about them. But as it got closer to the time we were supposed to go, I got anxious, nervous, I felt as if I had heart palpitations but I didn't. It was bad. I kept coming up with excuses (in my head) why I couldn't go. But I forced myself to do it. But the ride over there was awful for me. In my head, I kept saying. "We're not really going are we?" "We're just taking a little drive, then we're going back home." "This isn't happening. I'm dreaming it. We're going home soon." Then when we got to the intersection right before their house I kept saying to myself "Please don't turn onto Auburn. Please don't turn .... Please don't turn ...." over and over and over. But we did turn and then I got this tightness in my chest and I got all dizzy. I had that feeling until we turned into the driveway and I saw my father-in-law. After that, I was fine. *sigh* I thought writing about this would make me feel better, but it actually makes me feel like more of a freak. I'm going to publish it anyway, though, so I can (hopefully) look back on it someday and see how much progress I've made.
Wednesday, March 20, 2002
What Snack Food are YOU? Click here to find out!
*sigh* I really wanted to be Cheetos. However, I was just informed by someone who will remain nameless that Cheetos are not a snack food. They're junk food. I beg to differ. Cheetos have real cheese in them. So, not only are they a snack, they are a member of one of the basic food groups.
Monday, March 18, 2002
Here's my Monday Mission
1. As a child, did you ever wish you had a different name, maybe a name you wish your parents had chosen? To what would change it if you could? I had two. One was Wendy; the other was Amy. When I told my mom I wished my named was Amy, she said she chose names that would "grow with us." Now I guess I see what she meant. Imagine years from now when grandmothers are going to be named Britney, Tiffany and Heather. Anyway, I don't think I'd change my name even if I could.
2. What skill have you been wanting to learn but have just kept putting off? A lot of things that have to do with computers, php for example.
3. Are there there any regional foods you love but just can't get where you are living now? (burger chain, ice cream shop, etc. that was in your hometown but has no locations where you are today) Yes! Bison French Onion Chip Dip! It's sold only in Western New York and parts of Northwestern Pennsylvania. Also, beef on weck. There are things that are close here, but not close enough.
4. What recreational activity would you take up if you had the time and/or money? I really can't think of any.
5. What's the biggest lie you've ever told? Has anybody ever found out? Without getting into the details of why this conversation started, I told my mother I was a virgin when I wasn't. I think she knew the truth all along. Since then, I don't think I told anyone until now that I lied to my mom. But at least one person knows the events leading up to the lie.
6. What was your favorite Saturday morning cartoon when you were growing up? Bugs Bunny. I still like Bugs and Tweety. Even thought they weren't cartoons, I also loved H.R. Puffnstuf, and even had the soundtrack album of the show. I liked the Bugaloos, too, and Land of the Lost. The Flintstones weren't on Saturday mornings, were they? Anyway, I think the Flinstones are great!
7. Let's say one of your relatives slipped you a $100 bill, to help you out for the month. Your significant other didn't see it, would you tell them or keep it to yourself? I'd tell him. I don't keep any secrets from Nick.
1. As a child, did you ever wish you had a different name, maybe a name you wish your parents had chosen? To what would change it if you could? I had two. One was Wendy; the other was Amy. When I told my mom I wished my named was Amy, she said she chose names that would "grow with us." Now I guess I see what she meant. Imagine years from now when grandmothers are going to be named Britney, Tiffany and Heather. Anyway, I don't think I'd change my name even if I could.
2. What skill have you been wanting to learn but have just kept putting off? A lot of things that have to do with computers, php for example.
3. Are there there any regional foods you love but just can't get where you are living now? (burger chain, ice cream shop, etc. that was in your hometown but has no locations where you are today) Yes! Bison French Onion Chip Dip! It's sold only in Western New York and parts of Northwestern Pennsylvania. Also, beef on weck. There are things that are close here, but not close enough.
4. What recreational activity would you take up if you had the time and/or money? I really can't think of any.
5. What's the biggest lie you've ever told? Has anybody ever found out? Without getting into the details of why this conversation started, I told my mother I was a virgin when I wasn't. I think she knew the truth all along. Since then, I don't think I told anyone until now that I lied to my mom. But at least one person knows the events leading up to the lie.
6. What was your favorite Saturday morning cartoon when you were growing up? Bugs Bunny. I still like Bugs and Tweety. Even thought they weren't cartoons, I also loved H.R. Puffnstuf, and even had the soundtrack album of the show. I liked the Bugaloos, too, and Land of the Lost. The Flintstones weren't on Saturday mornings, were they? Anyway, I think the Flinstones are great!
7. Let's say one of your relatives slipped you a $100 bill, to help you out for the month. Your significant other didn't see it, would you tell them or keep it to yourself? I'd tell him. I don't keep any secrets from Nick.
It's time for participation positives ... a way to start monday
Nick
a family who loves me
we're moving into a brand new house in about 6 weeks!
I'm cutting down on smoking
I got a cool e-mail that made me feel good
this post
did I mention the new house?
I'm getting some really interesting comments here from some cool people. Thanks!
I made some money from epinions
I typed epinions correctly the first time instead of the "epionions," like I usually do
participation positives makes me smile
The RAOK Group makes me smile
the sun's out
Nick
Nick
a family who loves me
we're moving into a brand new house in about 6 weeks!
I'm cutting down on smoking
I got a cool e-mail that made me feel good
this post
did I mention the new house?
I'm getting some really interesting comments here from some cool people. Thanks!
I made some money from epinions
I typed epinions correctly the first time instead of the "epionions," like I usually do
participation positives makes me smile
The RAOK Group makes me smile
the sun's out
Nick
Sunday, March 17, 2002
Saturday, March 16, 2002
Wednesday, March 13, 2002
I know writing/talking about politics and religion is only asking for trouble. But something has been bothering me since yesterday and if I don't write about it, I'll keep obsessing over it. There's a so-called "Christian" webring that has a blacklist of other webrings and groups its members are forbidden to join. Among these groups is The RAOK Group -- a group of people who believe spending 5 minutes a day spreading kindness on the Internet can make a difference. Why is RAOK so "bad," according to these people? Because Wiccans and gays (oh my God! No! Not those heathen homosexuals!!) and other naughty people are among the members. Other unacceptable practices/beliefs include transcendental meditation, numerology, ESP, new age, reincarnation and karma.
These are the kind of "Christians" that bother me and, quite frankly, scare me. Their tips and guidelines for deciding if the links on your site are acceptable include "Would you show this link to Jesus?" Well, yes. Yes I would point Jesus in the direction of RAOK. I like to think that if he didn't like it, we'd have a discussion about it. We'd listen to each other's points of view. He'd let me make my own decision. I debated on whether I should post a link to this site. I decided to do it so you can see for yourself, decide for yourself.
The link to the blacklisted sites was taken down yesterday after a few people expressed their opinions on it. I wish I could see it so I could show you what these "Christians" are saying about other people. It's one of the most un-Christian things I've ever seen. The woman who runs the group also deleted guestbook entries that took offense to the blacklist. Of course it's her right to delete anything she wants to from her guestbook, but I don't understand why she did it? Afraid of an intelligent discussion on the subject, perhaps?
I consider myself a Christian. However, I don't belong to an organized religion. I believe in being the best person I can be. I believe in helping others. I believe in being in kind. I believe in what Mahatma Gandhi taught -- "God has no religion." If we are to believe what the "Christians" in this group believe, we must believe Gandhi is not in heaven. Does anyone believe that?
These are the kind of "Christians" that bother me and, quite frankly, scare me. Their tips and guidelines for deciding if the links on your site are acceptable include "Would you show this link to Jesus?" Well, yes. Yes I would point Jesus in the direction of RAOK. I like to think that if he didn't like it, we'd have a discussion about it. We'd listen to each other's points of view. He'd let me make my own decision. I debated on whether I should post a link to this site. I decided to do it so you can see for yourself, decide for yourself.
The link to the blacklisted sites was taken down yesterday after a few people expressed their opinions on it. I wish I could see it so I could show you what these "Christians" are saying about other people. It's one of the most un-Christian things I've ever seen. The woman who runs the group also deleted guestbook entries that took offense to the blacklist. Of course it's her right to delete anything she wants to from her guestbook, but I don't understand why she did it? Afraid of an intelligent discussion on the subject, perhaps?
I consider myself a Christian. However, I don't belong to an organized religion. I believe in being the best person I can be. I believe in helping others. I believe in being in kind. I believe in what Mahatma Gandhi taught -- "God has no religion." If we are to believe what the "Christians" in this group believe, we must believe Gandhi is not in heaven. Does anyone believe that?
